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My childhood was truly blessed, as I knew I was surrounded with love, support, and encouragement in a Christian home. Just as all of us in this broken world experience, my family and I went through our ups and downs. Through all of these experiences, I grew very independent as I was encouraged at a young age to development this attribute. 
 
 

 

 

As I reflect back on my middle school years, I know the Holy Spirit was guiding me even when I could not completely comprehend it, and thankfully and joyfully, the very same thing continues to occur. I sought the Lord in my life through the ways I understood of loving others and being good. During this time, I thoroughly enjoyed my schooling and life but I longed for something beyond this, as I was always encouraged to seek adventure.

 

 

 

I was blessed with the opportunity to attend boarding school after eighth grade, and this was truly a gift as God completely orchestrated it. My years away from home starting at age fourteen have shaped me into the women that I am today. I was literally in a fairytale because at that point going to my high school had been a lifelong dream.

 

 

 
The independent lifestyle I lived was something I thrived off of. The community I lived in provided me with opportunities beyond my wildest dreams, as the world was literally my oyster. During these years, I still sought faith in the Lord, especially through the communities I found in two local churches. While I knew the Lord was guiding me, I continued to have a pretty passive relationship with Him, as I only desired to love others and to be good. I just saw my relationship with God as something that made me good – not something that set me free.
 
 

 

 

Overall, my years in high schools consisted of God chiseling away at my heart so I would finally open up to Him. At the end of my senior year after I returned from a two-week trip to India, it finally hit me. I kept on chasing after adventure and fulfillment in things that would pass away – yes I was "good" but God alone is good (Luke 18:19). The only thing I wanted was to fall in love with God so then I could know what it meant to lose my life.

 

 

 

The summer between high school and college was a beautiful time as I learned how to enter into a relationship with our Father. This was the time when I took some of the biggest steps in opening up to Him as I started to actively seek Him and work out my salvation instead of passively accepting it. The biggest thing I had to let go of and continue to release was and is my pride. With an independent spirit, I have the tendency to do things all on my own, and to break me of this God commands me to be humble.

 

 

 

Our Father continues to put me in places of humility as He reminds me:

 

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. – Psalm 51:17

 

The Lord calls me to be raw with Him as He demands for me to be unveiled before Him so His glory may be revealed. With my prideful spirit, I have the tendency to hold on to things and not want to give them over to the Lord. Therefore, my prayer everyday is to Breathe and Let Go.

 

 

 
The Lord brings me to points of weakness because that is when His glory is revealed the most through me and I am not surviving on my own strength. So to live a life worthy of my calling I must breathe and let go of the things I hold on to.
 

 

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